Blackout Poetry Notes

Coward

She flung that excess of emotion
back at the coward,
for he'd kept his distance
and played her.

I gazed round
at the singing birds
nestling in among the foliage.

Life departed hastily
straight into the
landscape of time.

Vivid memories from school
later gather
in old acquaintances.

My mind barren in
blue mood.
My eyes daze over
with shock swimming
in my brain.

I want to succeed
but not with the desperation
I felt for love.

Anguished cries transfigured
her happy countenance.
Love hurt exceedingly so,
you needn't imagine.

Happiness struck me
and opened a torrent of
growing love.

I had a chance of
being in love
but
I'd rather be damned.

This library of pen-and-ink commentary - 
a diary, scrawled
in hieroglyphics of myself.